once I was
on the inside
spending my time
with companions of
arrogance
indifference
certainty
fear
shame
and then I was
on the outside
alone with
more fear
more shame
feeling abandoned
inside
outside
These are not places
I want to dwell anymore
Where can I be
where fear and shame
are not my constant
companions
On the side
Just the side
Not in or out
Oh, to be on the side
of the people I love
Oh, to be on the side
of the people I have yet to love
To be on the side
Observing
Listening
Learning
Embracing
Inviting
Sharing
Discovering
Laughing
Loving
© Ruby Neumann
Poet's Note: Written April 15.
I am trying to encapsulate a mix of where I am, where I want to be and where being thrives, makes sense, and is the most beneficial for my well being and the well being of those around me. What does it look like to ditch the borders, the clubs, the restrictions and just be? What would it feel like to embrace those around me without wondering how they will contaminate me? How do I mark each step toward this "place of being"... in a world so opposed to it?
