The Nightmare of Christmas


Twas the Nightmare of Christmas

In the year 2020

When the Grinch of all grinches 

Deceived humanity


He didn't need to sneak in 

The dead of the night

Robbing Christmas got easier

When Covid took flight


Instead of heisting the turkey 

And making off with each toy

He just spread a little fear

And he made off with their joy


People lined up at the post office

Their gifts to mail

And stayed home alone 

In their domestic jail


They accepted their doom 

And didn't complain

All they said in response

"We are just being safe."


"Where are you, Christmas?"

No one's asking that now

They think it will be back 

In '21 somehow


The Grinch said with pleasure

"What a rewarding day"

I didn't have to steal Christmas  

They just gave it away"


© Ruby Neumann




Poet's Note: Written December 15, 2020... ten days before the worst Christmas for a lot of people.  


January 6, 2021... I want to add something to my Poet's note.  This is poetry, my expression of my frustration.  I understand how polarizing our planet is right now, and I'm not trying to pick a fight.  All year my sadness at the rampant fear has been no secret.  I am pretty clueless to the reality of this whole thing right now... all I have is what others are telling me to believe... and for someone who struggles with believing in God, not believing in the thousands of interpretations of the Covid crisis is not a big stretch for me.  


I want to believe in Love.  Love is the only thing that has made a transformative difference in my life.  So when I look at the year we've had and seen Love take a back seat to Fear... then I will write authentic poetry.  


Christmas is gone, over, maybe we can hope that, like in the book, the "Grinch" will have a change of heart and will be "carving up the roast beast" in 2021.  I think I have enough hope for that.  



Be my son



Be my son today

My first born

Flesh of my flesh

My heart's true love


I have no son

Or one that wants to be mine

So I am asking you

Be my son


Stand with me

Beside me

Embrace me

Love me

As you would a mother

As you would a father


And I will love you


Son


© Ruby Neumann





Poet's Note: Written December 12, 2020.  I feel like I'm writing poetry these days that can't be analyzed through a poet's note.  I have nothing for this one either.  Sometimes the poem must speak for itself.  



I am not Safe

I am sick

Sick with dread that I've helped unleash a monster

I am sad

Sad that I couldn't stop the world I live in from becoming the world you live in

I am suffering

Suffering because in this moment, I feel helpless

I am sorry

Sorry for the pain that my silence caused you

I am stricken

Stricken with guilt for being silent

I am shamed

Shamed into silence

I am not Safe


© Ruby Neumann



Poet's Note:   Written December 8, 2020 To anyone living in the future... this one is for you. 

Someone

I wave my hands in the air 

Trying to feel something 

Something there

But how do I feel the air

And yet I’m told it’s there


I wave my hand around and around 

Trying to find my solid ground

Trying to know

To understand 

That what moves in and around my hand

Is more than nothing 

More than air

Somehow 

Something 

Maybe Someone is there


Someone more than what I’ve been told

Someone not like the stories of old

But Someone beyond all knowledge and touch

Beyond is what I desire so much 

Someone there all around 

Maybe that is my solid ground

And not just around but somehow within

Now that is Someone I could believe in


I can’t trust my sight, my sounds or my touch

Oh, what I can trust in is not much

But maybe, oh maybe somehow there must

Be Someone that somehow I could trust


© Ruby Neumann




Poet's Note:  I got a letter in the mail today from my godmother, and she wrote: 

"Your month of silence is closing in on you and I wonder how it's going for you?  Probably written a few or poems that you'll soon share with again!"

Well, Auntie Ella... I wrote one.  And it landed on my fingertips on the last day of the month.  Truth be told, I didn't really feel all that poetic this month.  

I had been struggling for a while to visualize the Creator I was discovering on this journey.  The picture was foggy at best.  I had tossed all my previous visuals when I "deconstructed".  If you have ever done that, you might understand how difficult it is to relate to "God" when you can't imagine "God".  

There is a book I read a few months ago called "The Universal Christ" by Richard Rohr.   If I was looking for some picture to enhance my imagination,  Richard helped me do the exact opposite.  He helped me let go of my imagination and my need to have a picture in my head of what "God" looks like.  It is really not helpful especially when figuring that the Creator of the Cosmos has to be so much more expansive than any picture in my imagination.  This poem is inspired by "The Universal Christ".  I highly recommend this book for anyone who struggles with their picture of "God".  It was very helpful for me.