Someone

I wave my hands in the air 

Trying to feel something 

Something there

But how do I feel the air

And yet I’m told it’s there

I wave my hand around and around 

Trying to find my solid ground

Trying to know

To understand 

That what moves in and around my hand

Is more than nothing 

More than air

Somehow 

Something 

Maybe Someone is there

Someone more than what I’ve been told

Someone not like the stories of old

But Someone beyond all knowledge and touch

Beyond is what I desire so much 

Someone there all around 

Maybe that is my solid ground

And not just around but somehow within

Now that is Someone I could believe in

I can’t trust my sight, my sounds or my touch

Oh, what I can trust in is not much

But maybe, oh maybe somehow there must

Be Someone that somehow I could trust

© Ruby Neumann

Poet's Note:  I got a letter in the mail today from my godmother, and she wrote: 

"Your month of silence is closing in on you and I wonder how it's going for you?  Probably written a few or poems that you'll soon share with again!"

Well, Auntie Ella... I wrote one.  And it landed on my fingertips on the last day of the month.  Truth be told, I didn't really feel all that poetic this month.  

I had been struggling for a while to visualize the Creator I was discovering on this journey.  The picture was foggy at best.  I had tossed all my previous visuals when I "deconstructed".  If you have ever done that, you might understand how difficult it is to relate to "God" when you can't imagine "God".  

There is a book I read a few months ago called "The Universal Christ" by Richard Rohr.   If I was looking for some picture to enhance my imagination,  Richard helped me do the exact opposite.  He helped me let go of my imagination and my need to have a picture in my head of what "God" looks like.  It is really not helpful especially when figuring that the Creator of the Cosmos has to be so much more expansive than any picture in my imagination.  This poem is inspired by "The Universal Christ".  I highly recommend this book for anyone who struggles with their picture of "God".  It was very helpful for me.