Four A M
On the deck
In the twilight
Of the morning
Surrounded
By the gentle rain
Caressed and purified
By each drop
Saying nothing
Feeling EVERYTHING!
In a holy moment
Me
And
You
Intimate
The Earthly
Almost naked
And the
Divine
Almost present
Is this enough?
Is this real?
Is this everything?
YES
This is EVERYTHING!
Written July 1, 2020... shortly after 4 AM
Yesterday, my mom told me that she prays that I will know I am a "Child of God". And I ask myself. Is that really enough? I spend years in church and bible school and decades of wandering from denomination to denomination, searching for something… and all I need to be is a "Child of God"?
Boy, the anger in me wants to rise up yell…
"WHAT A DAMN WASTE OF TIME!"
This morning… around 4 am, after a short soak in the hot tub… I stood on the deck in my bathing suit, in the rain, in the semi darkness of the hour, only light coming from two distant lamp posts. There I stood, feeling free. Feeling something… NO… as the poem says… Feeling EVERYTHING!!!
Finally not restrained by a world of religious rules and expectations. I don't need to have words. Words are inadequate. Words are limited. Words can no longer contain EVERYTHING!
