I will not go easy into this night

I will not go easy into this night
Sleep will not come
My heart will not find rest
Until the day is over 
And the memory of you 
And what happened this night
That year 
Is passed again
I will not forget
Ever
But as the day passes
Life continues the journey 
And I will go on
Until this night comes again 
Next year
And then, as I have done tonight
I will lay awake
Waiting 
Until the night and the day are over
One more time

© Ruby Neumann


Poet's note: 
The tragedy happens and a year passes, and just when the nightmare starts to subside, the anniversary of that night comes.  This poem was written January 2018,  just after midnight of the first anniversary of my nephew's death.