Today someone stopped breathing



Why do we breathe?

We’ve been told that we need to breathe
We don’t really need to breathe
But if we’re going to breathe we need someone to breathe for

No one really breathes for themselves
No one really can breathe for themselves

We’ve been told people stop breathing because it hurts to breathe
But some people breathe even when it hurts to breathe
Because they have someone to breathe for

So what happens when we don’t have someone to breathe for?
Those who don’t have anyone to breathe for will stop breathing 

Today someone stopped breathing
  because they didn’t have someone to breathe for

Today someone stopped breathing 
  because they believed they didn’t have someone to breathe for

Today someone stopped breathing 
  because they forgot they had someone to breathe for

Today someone stopped breathing




Poet's Note:  Breathing: an involuntary response, but one necessary for consciousness.  I don't think I choose to breathe, I just breathe.  But the irony of that statement is that I can choose not to breathe.    

I wrote this poem today (Feb. 28, 20) as I remembered someone who, when faced with a mountain that he felt like he couldn't climb, chose not to breathe. He was 18 years old and was well loved (as evidenced by the hundreds of people that showed up for his funeral).   

This isn't a science lesson; this isn't a theology sermon;  this is poetry...  born out of questions asked when someone stopped breathing.    When I started this poem, I wrote for one person, but in the end I wrote for a world filled with people who have stopped breathing for uncountable reasons. 


Metal Bird



Metal Bird 
I’m trusting you 
Metal Bird
With you, I’ll fly
With you, I will soar high in the clouds 
Metal Bird 
I have dreams I must fulfill 
I have life I need to live
Metal Bird
Take me home

Metal Bird 
With wings of great strength
A body so sleek
And eyes, stretched and scratched
Metal Bird
I will sleep with you
With you I will rest

Metal Bird 
Be careful 
Metal Bird 
Watch out! 
The angry arrow flies
Metal Bird 
If only you had wings of feathers and flesh 
You could have flown away
Away from the path of the angry arrow 
Metal Bird
You could have taken me home

Metal Bird
I’ll die with you today
Metal Bird 
And I’m not the only one 
That trusted you
That now rests with you
Oh Metal Bird
Please take me Home





Poet's Note: Written February 22, 2020 in honour of Ukrainian flight 752 that was shot down by an Iranian missile on January 8, 2020.  Today, at Edmonton City Hall.. people will gather again to remember their family and friends that died that day.  

What saddens me is,  that this could just have been another tragic news story that came and went, had it not been for one person.  So this poem is for my friend Pegah.  

I woke up unforgiving today

I woke up unforgiving today
A four letter word brought the pain back my way
And I remembered you and the hatred played
Of what you almost took from me that day
I thought I healed, but it didn’t stay
I am more angry now, and I regret to say
That I woke up unforgiving today

© Ruby Neumann




Poet's Note:  (Written Feb 2, 2020 early morning) In this moment, I am thinking that forgiveness isn't something we should do, we must do or we have to do... Forgiveness can only be the response of our need to love.  Love is what heals, and forgiveness happens because the Love is real, not forced.  So when Love takes its time in becoming real... I end up feeling like I felt this morning.  

I will be honest, I don't love the person that inspired this poem.  This person almost took something priceless from me... in a moment.  It was almost two decades ago, and the best metaphor I can come up with comes from the Shack movie.  I still have my hands around his throat.  

There have been triggers over the last few years that have reminded me that I still am unforgiving towards him.   I think I realized something this morning.  I was never able to express my anger.  I had to bury it... because of who that person was.  So that anger still bubbles inside, waiting for an exit, so one day I can forgive and take my hands off his throat.